Changes in life

Well, I am not going to homeschool. I still think it would be best, but she wont be harmed by public schools. And if i supplement, it will be ok. I have come to the realization that I cannot raise 4 children, keep the house livable, homeschool, and be sane all at the same time.

I started on a medicine cocktail. I am so against taking drugs for the rest of my life, but I have tried to deal with this without them, and it doesnt work. I am mean, irritable, lazy, you name it. With these new drugs I can play with my kids, I can cook a real dinner. I can keep the house clean, I can be a wife and a mother. I did have to stop nursing my son. This made me so very sad, and so very in pain! But its worth it. This change is whats best for all of us.

The kids went to visit my mother for a month. It was so quiet and relaxing. I still had the baby at home, but compared to real life, that was a piece of cake. I am still adjusting to having them back, but life is so much better now than it was before they left. I really needed to rest.

All in all, life is good. Its about time. Now if we could jsut learn to stick to a budget.....